I made it back to Missouri to be with my family after my nephew James was in a serious car accident which left him in a coma. It was a bittersweet trip because James was my sisters son and my sister and I had not spoken for almost 4 years.
I was hesitant about seeing her and worried that she would snub me but, my need to see James, to let him know his Aunt loved him very much, was much stronger. To my amazement my sister welcomed me with open arms and it was she that personally took me to James side. We stood there just us two sisters, looking at her grown up baby boy. The same boy that we shared so many sisterly talks about through the years as he grew into a young man. And here he lay before us in a deep sleep, unable to talk back. I told him stories of when he was younger and promised more when he woke up. I told him to rest but, to make sure he came back to us. I told him I loved him. I kissed his cheek and kissed his hand. Then I turned and left the room, leaving him to his angels and God.
A few days later the call came in. James had been pronounced brain dead. The hospital was leaving him on life support until we all got there. I wasn't sure how I would handle seeing him in that state but, I managed to go into his room. He had already been taken off the life support and was breathing on his own although very labored. The room was full of family and no one was talking. We were just there, watching the final moments of James life on this earth. I tried. I tried to be there and be strong but, I just couldn't do it. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life, standing there watching that beautiful boy slip from this earth. I know he was going home to our Father in Heaven but, it still hurt. I am still human and I am selfish.
James left this earth less than 5 hours later. I had to pack and be on a plane back home 8 hours afterwards. At least I got to say goodbye. At least I got to hug my sister and tell her I love her.
So now when I lay my head down to sleep at night I know there is one more angel in heaven watching over me and saving the spots for the rest of us when our times come. He is blonde haired and blue eyed. His name is James and I love him dearly.
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